One Direction. xx
Baby you light up my world like nobody else, the way that you
Sit at home all day and read fanfiction and eat lots of fattening food while crying over your otp and singing alone in front of your laptop, obsessing over your favorite band and crying at how pathetic your life is because you abandoned your social life
gets me overwhelmed
It had been about 2 months since the incident at Liam’s flat. It was as if there were a gaping hole in my chest. It couldn’t be filled. Liam had tried contacting me a countless number of times, but I refused to see him. I was still so hurt by what he had done to me. He had sent flowers, chocolates, teddy bears, and so much more to my dorm. Was he trying to buy me back? I thought. I couldn’t let myself give in to him.
“Tay, want to go grab some breakfast with Niall and I?” Erin asked. I had barely been out of my dorm room these past 2 months. Only for classes and the occassional meal. Erin was such a good friend, always inviting me to tag along with her. She felt just as bad as I did.
“Sure, that sounds good. Let me get ready.” I smiled at her and she grinned with excitement.
I went into the bathroom and turned on the steamy shower. I got in and scrubbed every last bit of dirt off my body. I shaved and washed my hair and got out. I decided that I would blowdry my hair and braid it down my back. I put on mascara and light blush. After, I put on a simple navy tank-top and jean shorts and my white Toms.
“Ready?” Erin asked me.
“Yep! Let’s go.”
Erin drove us to a small bistro caffe. Niall was already seated at a booth and waved for us to come over. He got up and gave Erin a Horan Hug and a small kiss on the cheek. They were adorable together. Niall, of course, knew about what happened with Liam and I.
“Hey Taylor.” He said with a sympathetic look. “How are you feeling?”
“I’ve actually been feeling a little bit better everyday. Thanks.” I said and gave him a small smile.
I spoke too soon.
There was Liam, hand in hand with the brunette from the party. I shut down. I couldn’t breathe and I needed to get out of here. Erin looked to where I was now staring and her jaw dropped.
“Niall, did you know he was going to be here?” She questioned him.
“No. How would I?” Niall looked nervous and scared. He wouldn’t of done that. He honestly didn’t know that Liam was going to be here.
Liam spotted us and started walking over. I got up from my chair and started walking towards the exit. Liam stepped in front of me and looked into my eyes. He let go of the brunette girl’s hand.
“Taylor..” He said barely hearable.
I didn’t say anything. I just scanned his eyes for some kind of reasoning. Why would he do this? Why her?! It wouldn’t of hurt so bad if it was anyone else.
“I’m Jenna.” She said with a bitter smirk. I wanted so bad to hit her right then and there. But I couldn’t. I just shoved past them and ran towards the door. I could feel Liam’s eyes on me the whole way.
Once I got outside I started letting the tears stream down my face. I didn’t care if anyone saw me. I just needed to get it out of my system. I heard footsteps coming towards me, and I looked up to see Ryan. He rushed over when he recognized who I was, and pulled me into a hug. I cried silently into his shoulder as he rubbed the small of my back with his strong hands.
“Thank you.” I told him, as I pulled out of the hug and wiped my eyes.
“Let me take you home.” I nodded my head and he held my hand to his car. He opened up my door and we drove off.
I had only talked to Ryan a handful of times since the party. I told him what had happened and he was nothing but wonderful. He was a great listener, comforter, and friend. I had feelings for him, for sure. However, I was too heartbroken from the Liam situation. We pulled up to my dorm and he opened my passenger door.
“Would you like to come in?” I asked while looking into his ocean eyes. I was lost in them. I saw him grin and nod his head.
We walked hand in hand into my dorm and sat on the couch. Ryan turned towards me and put his hand against my cheek. He smiled and leaned into me. I caught myself wanting to be closer to him. I grabbed his shirt and pulled him in and pressed my lips against his. He had the softest lips. Our lips parted and our tongues were exploring eachother’s mouths. I moved my hands from his shirt to his back and neck, gentley tugging his dark hair. He smiled between kisses and moved his hands to my hips and yanked them towards his. I felt my phone vibrate in my jeans and we both chuckled. I answered the call with out looking to see who it was from.
“Hello?” I asked into the phone. Ryan started nibbling my neck causing me to giggle and breath heavier.
“Taylor? Who’s that with you?” I sat on the couch, frozen. The voice belonged to Liam.
“Babe, hang up the phone.” Ryan begged, still sucking my neck and jaw line.
“Is…is that Ryan?” Liam asked with hurt in his voice.
“Uh, yeah. It is.” I told him truthfully.
“Wow Taylor. Have fun with him.” Liam spat, and hung up the phone. He was such a prick. He can’t just cheat on me, start dating the girl, then get mad at me for trying to move on. No. Screw him.
I forcefully straddled my legs around Ryan’s hips and pressed my lips hard against his. Ryan didn’t back away, instead he pressed harder. and held onto me so tightly. I loved this. With Liam, it was gentle and passionate. Not with Ryan. With Ryan, it was rough and rugged. It turned me on so much. I started kissing his neck and pulled up his shirt to reveal a perfect six pack and huge pecs. I was a sucker for pecs. I started licking and kissing my way down to his lower region and unbuckled his belt. His hands were already working on my bra and shirt, and within a matter of seconds I was topless. He kissed my stomache and pressed his tongue against my skin sending shivers down my spine. He took off my shorts and carried me to my bed. He was on top of me pressing his groin against mine and grinding it against me. He was so fucking hot right now. I wanted him so bad. I flipped us over so I was on top and started doing things my way.
Liam and I were setting up Liam’s flat for the party. I decided on wearing a pair of black short-shorts and a loose tank top tucked in. I straightend my long blonde hair and put on eyeliner and mascara. We still had a couple of hours to kill so we decided to take a break and grab an early dinner. Liam drove us to the local chinease restraunt, Chi Peng. As always, Liam opened my door for me and I led us inside the noisy restraunt. The hostess looked up from her table chart and gawked at Liam. She started fangirling and hyperventilating. Liam smiled and asked her if she would like a picture with him. Ofcourse she said yes. I snapped a photo of them from her iPhone and she gladly took us to our table.
“Sorry about that, babe.” Liam said sweetly.
” Don’t worry about it. I know it’s going to happen all the time. I mean, how could they resist you?” I leaned in, our lips almost touching, then pulled away and gave him a playful wink. I could see the desire and lust in Liam’s eyes. I couldn’t deny that I was wanting him just as bad. Maybe more.
Our waiter came to our table and took our drink orders.
“Hello, my name is Ryan. I will be your server this evening, may I start you off with a drink?” He said a little too flirtatiously. He then proceeded to look into my eyes and flash such a beautiful smile. Ryan was good looking. About 6’5”, a dark tan, and brown-almost black hair. The best feature about him was his pool-blue eyes. They went so well with his dark complection and dark hair. I was a little taken back at his beauty.
I quickly snapped out of it when I heard Liam, “Taylor? He just asked you for your drink order.”
“Oh, right! Sorry..” I said a little embarrassed. Ryan winked at me and I blushed a little. “I’ll have a strawberry pineapple margarita please.”
“Alright, one of my favorites. And for you?” He said towards Liam.
“I’ll have a vodka soda. Thanks” Liam said, with out even looking at Ryan. “Taylor, what was that about?” He said, obviously annoyed.
“What do you mean?”
“Uhm…let’s see. The flirting with the waiter, maybe?” Liam sounded a little aggressive, and I didn’t like this side of him.
“Babe, don’t worry about it. I was just being nice. Besides, I don’t get jealous when you hug fans, take pictures with them, and all of that.” I told him, maybe a little to stern.
“You know that’s different, Taylor.” He was right, but I didn’t want to make this a big deal.
“You’re right, I’m sorry.” I gave him a peck on the cheek and he reached for my hand.
Our drinks came, and I gulped mine down and ordered another. I wanted to get loosened up before our party. Ryan came back out and took our orders. I ordered the sweet and sour chicken, my favorite, while Liam ordered the cashew chicken and crab wontons. We ate and chatted about random things for the duration of our meal. When Ryan came back with the check, he slipped me an extra napkin with a note inside.
You’re gorgeous. I would love to take you out sometime if you’re interested. Text me sometime! 839-2905 xx
I couldn’t help but blush and smile ear to ear. Luckily, Liam was too busy figuring out what to tip him and didn’t notice. I loved Liam. At least, I thought I did. But, I still had feelings for Harry and Ryan was amazingly gorgeous. I needed to focus on Liam. He was so good to me, and he deserved that much.
Liam paid the bill, and we left the restraunt. We drove back to his flat and started mixing drinks and laid out food for the party. Within the next half hour, the rest of the gang was here. Niall walked in with Erin and about 12 other people. 8 of which, were girls. They were flawless. Harry would definately fancy at least one of them. Probably more. Zayn and Louis came in next with about 20 more guests. 10 guys, and 10 girls. I guess word had gotten out about the party because before I knew it, about 50 more people charged through the door. Liam didn’t seem phased.
“Happens.” Was all he had to say.
I was about to shut the door, when I felt a force pushing back.
How the heck did he know about this party? He was with 4 other guys. They smiled and walked in. Ryan, however, stopped and walked to me.
“Fancy seeing you here. I didn’t get a chance to get your name.” He said, and I was mezmorized.
“Taylor.” I said sheepishly. He held out his hand and I shook it.
“Well, Taylor, I’m glad you’re here.” He said with a wink.
He walked back towards his friends and continued to stand there in the doorway, still blushing. I felt a pair of hands grab me around my hips. I leaned into their arms, assuming it was Liam. I laced my fingers with theirs and nuzzled the back of my head into their shoulder. I looked up and was shocked when I saw Harry’s face. I quickly unlaced our fingers and turned to face him.
“Whoa Harry. Why’d you do that?” I asked a little ticked.
“Well you obviously didn’t seem to mind.” He said, while reaching for my hips again. I shoved his hands away.
“That’s because I thought you were Liam.” I spat at him.
“You’ll see. Soon enough, Tay. You belong with me, and deep down you know it.” He was a pig. A shameless one at that.
I swiftly made my way over to Liam. He was standing next to Zayn and 2 brunettes.
“Oh, uh, hey babe.” Liam said while backing away from one of the girls. I shot a look at her and she seemed annoyed that I came over and interrupted. She was wearing skin tight leopard booty shorts, with a cream colored tube top. Typical. I smirked at her and turned back to Liam.
“Wanna go get some shots?” I asked as leaned into him and gave him a kiss. I turned to the girl and she looked pissed. Good.
I took Liam’s hand and led him to kitchen. I grabbed two shot glasses and filled them with patron to the rim. Liam and I both took a shot, but I kept going. I proceeded to do about 5 more. Liam only took 3, but he was already tipsy. I was hammered now.
I walked away and started looking for Harry. Perfect. He was all over some blonde bimbo with her shorts too short and her shirt too tight. Oh well, at least he’s over me already. I walked to the living room and started dancing with everyone. I felt hands on my hips again and they leaned into me. I loved when guys held me from behind and rubbed up against me, so I started slowly grinding on them. We moved in sync for about 3 songs. I turned around and was surprised to see Ryan there. He was as drunk as I was and he was looking even better. His khaki cargo shorts and his fitted charcoal grey v-neck looked so good on him. He smiled and grabbed me around the waist and pulled me into him. We stayed like this, front grinding, for another 2 songs. I was moving my hips around and rubbing myself on him. I could feel him get hard through his shorts. Such a turn on.
We walked to the kitchen and took 3 shots of smirnoff.
I woke up the next morning with a raging headache. What happend last night? I looked around the room and realized I was in Liam’s guest room. There was no one else in the room with me, so I walked out. I was looking around Liam’s flat, and saw about a dozen-or-so people still asleep in the living room. In the kitchen, there was Niall curled up with Erin, and Zayn with one of the brunettes from last night. Louis was in the dining room, under the table. I couldn’t seem to find Harry or Liam.
I decided to walk upstairs to the bathroom to splash some water on my face and take some advil. I opened the door and saw Harry in the bath tub, stark naked with the blonde I saw last night. I quickly shut the door and went to Liam’s room.
I opened his door, and just about died. There was Liam, shirtless and holding that brunette girl. I fell to the floor and started sobbing. Just then, Liam woke up and looked around the room. He quickly ran over to me, and I saw he was only in his boxers.
“Taylor. What’s wrong?” Was he serious right now?
“Are you kidding me?!” I screamed. “How could you do this to me? You said you loved me.” I continued to cry my eyes out.
“What are you talking about? What did I do?!” He yelled with a desperate tone in his voice.
“That would be me.” The brunette said with a cheeky grin on her face. “And you loved it.” She said as she got out of bed holding the sheets infront of her body to cover up. Liam’s face when ghost white when he looked over at her. “I had a great time Li. Again soon? Just like old times.” She said and walked out of the room, clothes in hand.
“Taylor, no, it’s, it’s not what you think. No-nothing happend. We just..” He couldn’t find the words to say. I cut him off.
“How could you..?” Was all I could manage to get out. I looked him in the eyes and shook my head. I struggled to get up. Liam grabbed my arm.
“No! Taylor, you can’t do this. I was drunk. I don’t even remember anything. It meant nothing!” He pleaded.
“Well, that apparently wasn’t the first time with her, was it “Li” I snapped at him. He looked at the ground and back up at me.
“No…it wasn’t. We used to date, last year. I hadn’t seen her since we started dating. I swear, I would’ve never done this if I were sober. I love you, Taylor.” There was hurt in his eyes. The color was still drained from his face. He looked as if he were going to be sick.
“I can’t do this.” I said and started walking away.
“Do what?” He asked with fresh tears swelling up. I turned around and looked him in the eyes.
“Us.” I said choking up.
I practically ran out of the house and into the streets. I wanted to be alone. I called for a cab and went back to my dorm. I locked myself in my room and cried for what seemed to be hours. I reluctantly looked at my phone. 23 missed calls, 5 voicemails, and over 30 text messages. Only one wasn’t from Liam.
I’m sorry I left you last night. You were so out of it, and I didn’t want to take advantage of you. I tucked you in and let you sleep. I hope you don’t mind. I had a really good time last night. xx -Ryan